Seeing God when you don't see Him

It was a morning flight from Bangalore. As much as I like the city, the gloomy weather which unfolds so very often there always doesn't help. I was on the flight to Delhi, leaving behind Abisha, my wife who was 9 months pregnant expecting our first child. I was feeling extremely low. I was uncertain about the different emotions I was experiencing. It was going to be the longest time I am going to be away from her especially when she needs me the most. But I knew that it has to play out this way for this season of our life and anyway I was going to meet her again in a month. 

Yet the gloomy weather made me even more depressed. And life can do that to us. Circumstances, events, broken relationships, uncertain future, failures, setbacks can always create the gloomy weather around us. How do you feel at this point in your life? Gloomy, depressed and sad?

It was just about a minute since the flight took off and we immediately felt the turbulence when the plane passes through the clouds. These clouds are really low today I thought to myself. The pilot expertly kept manoeuvring the big bird through these dull, grey and heavy looking clouds and it went on and on. Then, it happened, one bank to the right and we were in a different zone in the atmosphere. For the first time that morning, I saw and felt the morning sun come through the rounded windows of the 737. The clear morning blue skies were a treat to my eyes. 

But then I thought to myself, the majestic sun and the reflected blue of white light which we see in sky was always there. It never went away. They were only temporarily hidden from my eyes. Yet, I almost behaved as if the sun has gone away forever. 

Isn’t that the same with God? Just like these dark clouds, my circumstances engulf me and make me feel as if He is not there anymore. While all I had to do was only look above the dark clouds He is always there never shaken, never in slumber, never defeated. My response is in my hands, no matter what engulfs me, do I live as if I know and convinced that God, My Father, Jesus My Savior and the Holy Spirit, My comfort is with me?

Habakkuk 3: 17- 19

Though the fig tree should not blossom,

    nor fruit be on the vines,

the produce of the olive fail

    and the fields yield no food,

the flock be cut off from the fold

    and there be no herd in the stalls,

18 YET I will rejoice in the Lord;

    I will take joy in the God of my salvation.

19 God, the Lord, is my strength;

    he makes my feet like the deer's;

    he makes me tread on my high places.

Psalm 42:5

Why are you cast down, O my soul?

And why are you disquieted within me?

Hope in God, for I shall YET praise Him

For the help of His countenance.

Romans 8:37,38

YET IN all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. 

 For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, 39 nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.